Thursday, September 17, 2009
should i just delete this blog away?
should i create new blog?
this blog had been announced DEAD.
facts are cruel.
u are as cruel as i am.
sigh.. ...
Labels: i didn't expect u to just delete me away just like tat..
2:17 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
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arrrggg.. i'm going crazy.. i hate it........... tonight i'm not going to slp.. tonight i'm not going to pick up any calls.. =((((((((((((((((((((((
everything that i need to do.. everythign that i had.. my life esp.. fuck it.. i hate it.....
Labels: i hate everything now.. every single thing.
1:07 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
so many things undone. =(
utssssssss
fyp..
mini project.. =(
all time consuming..
y cant u understand?
disappointing to the max...........
Labels: when it happen again and again.
8:13 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
1 july09finally its the AYG seasons.
finally we have no more trainings and its the real thing.
and yes. definitely.
its fun. & its really a new insight.
learn quite some stuffs through this workshop.
and the athletes from different countries is like so big size.
and they don look like what their age suppose to be.
its also the first time, my friends are so enthusiastic in taking pictures.
over 50 pics?
haha.
then buffet for lunch was provided.
there was quite many food.
sushi. rice. longtong. fruits. chicken. etc... ...
but not all nice..
and the waitress very funny.
she ask us to eat strawberry instead of watermelon
do u noe whY?
cox strawberry more expensive ma.
but the strawberry so sour.!! =(
they are so effing funny luh..
i eat less than 1..
becox.. i don dare eat..
and wendy help me to finish it. =)
so nice of her..
haha.
we want the spore merlion.
hopefully edmund can get it for us.. =)
after the workshop, meet up wid jia qi first at raffles link.
becox i wanted to buy a wallet..
and finally..
i found a Coach's wallet that i like..
and its on discount..
i think i bought it for 50% lesser.
so if you want to buy, better go buy fast yea.
singapore great sales is great!!
hee..
but i burn a big hole in my pocket..
still its all worth it. =D
then we rush down to bugis to meet wan man.
we ate tgt. but i forget the name of the shop.
but anyway. i don like the food.
and the egg was like so gross..
2 july 09why did it sold out.
sigh.
everytime like tat de lei.
whatever things i wan to buy always last piece or sold out.
so i went to many other outlets to find.
hope u'll like it.
finally find sth similar for tat.
phew.
arrgg..
i cut my hair today.
i don like it.
mummy say ugly..
she also noe how to cut tat.
classmates say my last time hairstyle look younger.
don get used to my hair.
don suits me..
and etc..
plz hair..
be obedient..
grow back fast..
or maybe longer le..
then wo.n't be so ugly..
got ppl say i'm cheena..
wth la.
insult.
sigh sigh sigh.
pictures is in another laptop.
update again tml. =)
Labels: i wish i could find it.
6:57 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Something that has been lost will never be able to retrieve again.
Heart that is broken won't be able to mend easily.
Labels: when I hurt enough...
2:36 AM
Our love will everlast x33
-just a random post- (don't be sensitive)
no one born to be ugly.
but there are ppl who are born to be lazy.
everyone will have the asset of beauty in themselves.
be it character, appearance, smiles, actions and etc...
its how we portray ourselves.
by keeping oneself tidy, that's already beauty.
make up do make wonders.
as it can change someone into a beautiful swan.
what matter most is still the inner heart.
if yr heart is ugly, to me, u are ugly.
everyone has different definition of beautiful.
to me, might be good looking, to u it might differs.
in fact it happens on everyone.
.........
.....
...
whatever that had happened in our life.
happen for a reason.
it take both hands to clap.
when a couple break off.
definitely, both parties contribute to it.
it just a matter of handling.
by saying who is at fault and who is not.
is pointless.
as we ourselves know our self best.
no one understand us most, except our self.
don cry over splil milk.
i learn from experiences.
whatever had happened, had happened.
by crying for several days, hours, months...
it won't help.
but only make oneself suffer.
its torturing to our psychological.
.
..
...
....
before we comment on someone...
think before react..
the kettle calling the pot black..
we might be referring to own self w/o realizing..
if the person really deserve scolding..
then go ahead..
i had been sober.
i'm awake.
now i know what i'm living for.
when someone mention that he/she will change for the better.
but when he/she keeps repeating the same stuffs..
over & over again..
what does the other party feel?
whr is the gaining of trust?
where is the happiest that promised to be?
the more someone pin high hopes, the more disappointment they will face.
be realistic.
through the journey of life.
everyone learn many stuffs.
process the stuffs and it will make us stronger.
i wan to be stronger.
i wan to be happy.
i just wan to be me.
to me who i am.
i found my own source of motivation to sch.
in tat.
its in myself.
no one.
but miss wong liping.
Labels: when its really tiring.
12:04 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Sunday, June 28, 2009
i feel so small.
i feel so unimportant.
hais.
all of a sudden..
i'm lost.
i'm alone.
sobx sobz
i don find the love as wad it used to be?
i feel so shit..
i listen to my friends.
try to be the best.
but still.
i failed.
everything changed.
i've lost.
really lost.
where is the miracle i wish to see? sigh
Labels: i don feel secure anymore.
11:33 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Saturday, June 27, 2009
y am i feeling this way.
i'm confused.
i know i should not feel this way.
but today.
i'm really very sad.
i dunno whether am i make any right or wrong choice.
i dunno wad i am doing.
but i will really think and do what my mind want.
i'm firm.
i know my dearest friends want me to use my heart to decide.
to follow my heart.
thxs for the advices and help.
i will use time to prove everything.
i will wish tat everything is true.
i will wish tat i have no regrets in the near future.
i am not mature. i agree..
i do not know how to handle relationship. i agree.
i am always throwing my temper. i agree.
hais.
y is there "love" & "relationship"?
y did i start on my first relationship?
if i nv had any, what will i be now?
happier or?
i'm always thinking that i'm too young for relationship.
izzit becox i have too high of expectation?
or izzit i take things for granted?
or izzit no one make me satisfied?
i was shocked.
i had suicidal thoughts today.
but i did not tell anyone?
i think i need to see a psychiatrist.
frankly speaking, i really wish tat time will turn back.
i wish tat none of these would happen.
if there's no start, there won be ending.
there won be tearing up of each other hearts.
friends are supporting me.
i'm glad i have them.
they always give me their comments and help me as much as they can.
w/o them, i might be more lost.
what do i want in life?
i had asked this qns upteens times.
why can't i just live each day like what my friends are doing?
why must i keep thinking of future?
i feel so disappointed in myself.
i had many drafts in my phone.
i always kept those feelings of mine inside.
esp whenever when i angry.
why can't i just accept the fact?
i feel so fuck up wid myself.
i am so unhappy.
i am stress over it.
maybe this sentence is right. " i can't see the situations as clear as the audience"
perhaps my friends are right in their prediction.
but ..
still..
i feel like a dumb ass.
becox i had no one to blame to, except myself.
i fall in love on my own accord initially.
not anyone.
but myself.
.now.. all i wish is..
to be simple..
myself.
so tat i won teared again.
i have no regrets in life.
neither will i want to feel regret in future.
bb
Labels: itsa heartache
1:04 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
post had been hide for some reasons.
no more sad issues over here.
only happy-joyful stuffs. =)
swimming was great.
update some other time.
ps: now not i against or wad.. its my parents.
Labels: hais. wad shd i do.
1:26 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Saturday, June 13, 2009
woo hoo..
finally we can go Johor tgt..
after much persuasion towards my parents..
its shopping.. shopping tym..
one of my fav hobby..
initially was only me and jia qi going tgt..
but baby was so over worried..
that sth might happen..
so he go wid us..
and ya..
i was not allowed to wear short short or skirts or anything tat reveal any part..
becox baby is super worried tat sth will happen ar..
should i be happy or sad?
tat someone is worrying abt me?
alright..
enuff abt tat..
back to my trip..
it was really a fruitful trip, though i did not buy many stuffs..
but still i've gained much memories..
fun fun fun..
and i would go there again..
and ya..
Malaysia arcade is like so much different from s'pore..
so much fun and cheaper kay!!
2 tokens for $RM1 for a game lei..
then there's this machine tat is so so special..
imagine a KTV singing inside a arcade?
though it was a small small room but still fun ok..
got 2 mics, disco lights.. and there are so many songs in there..
me and qi combine to challenge basketball game wid baby..
we score well..
well done girls!!
haha
actually is us..
we got more than 200 points!!
hip hip hooray..
we rarely have this kind of result ok..
baby ar..
super tempting towards food..
so he'll keep ask us to go in here and there to keep..
excited for food..
haha..
& ya.. i bough quite alot of chewing gums back to Spore..
my fav ok!!
haha.. thxs to jia qi and baby too..
they helped me to smuggle those in..
if i was the only one bringing those in..
i will be caught again!!
cox i have been caught for one time..
tell u ppl a secret!!
baby is timid!!
but when it comes to stage..
baby is so brave..
and he is not afraid of losing...
i was like so scare tat he will throw his face in the wave boarding
"competition" which is like hu can stand the longest on the board while there is
resistance towards it..
nto bad ar..
46 secs!!
i actually wanted to go up try..
regret not going up before baby!!
then after tat..
another person beat his timing..
and ya..
i don dare to go up after tat..
haha..
for lunch we went to eat marybrown..
sth like KFC..
but its was still not bad..
but hor..
dinner..
eeeyerrr..
yucks..
and i won want to go in again.. =(
esp wad baby and qi eat..
salted chicken..
it was like..
omg..
herbal!! i dunno wads the taste..
i only noe its horrible!!
many many pictures!!my 1st pic of the day
this is the "KTV" tat i mention.
the best Basketball team goes to us!! claps
we'll be going more places tgt..
genuinely smiles from all of us!!
so baby.
don disappoint me anymore.
don make me sad ok..
=)
Labels: i look very much forward to this trip and it was a fruity trip. fun.
11:07 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
my dearest baby chi birthday!!
last min then noe de..
becox his mummy cook mian xian for him..
then he ask me out tgt with seng ying, jeremy and jia qi..
we went to bukit timah for game of pool as both me and jia qi really have the feel for it..
when we reach cwp it was like almost 8pm..
choose a cake and cab down to look for them.. ^^
they ar.. slow poke sia..
we reach le.. they still haven reach yet..
then meanwhile, both me and jia qi prepare the cake..
and when they arrive..
i walk to baby side and hold him to whr my heart cake was..
he was quite suprise..
becox he say nobody will celebrate chi birthday de..
so he was happy..
then i disturb him wid cake..
but he keep avoiding..
but hor..
he sot sot sia..
after tat he still tell me..
baby :" i really very happy, and deep down my heart i wish u can play wid me more and make more cake onto my face."
i was like.. -.- baby ar.. haha..
we reach home pretty late..
as we went for supper at the opposite lane..
the food was yummy yummy..
really very nice i swear..
but i don eat what they eat .. frog porridge.. =(
compatiable look?
jia qi ar.. no smile.. =( smile more ma... hee
woo ha! dirty! da tang! lp make it!
oh ya.. ytd.. baby and me cook some preserve food tgt over his place..
in fact he did most of the job..
and when he took rice from the rice cooker..
and he was ironing his clothes not long ago..
hence, he scald himself.. =(
aw..
baby y u always so careless de ar?
can u be more cautious and don let me worry?
see la..
a scar le.. !!
see la everybody!!
scary isn't it?
sobx sobz..
Labels: happy lalala
10:45 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Sunday, June 7, 2009
what goes around, comes about.
i love this sentence.
and its so true.
in whatever we do.
and yeah.
emo-ing so so many days.
pondering over many things.
what should i do?
any advices?
Labels: when its time....
12:06 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Monday, June 1, 2009
today is the first tym we went pub tgt..
though shan wasn't there..
all thxs to bf and his friends..
then we went in..
and ya..
bf and his friends all sing very well..
seriously ok!!
ok..
i show everyone the pics i took today..
1..
2..
3..
**applause**
guess which food is mine?
Labels: will edit this post again...
2:03 AM
Our love will everlast x33
today is a fun fun day.
went for ice skating at kallang wid baby.
we have been out tgt for consecutive for 3 days le..
don't complaint tat i nv accompany u le ar..
we went to the archade..
guess wad?
BABY CAUGHT A WINNIE 17 HAO FOR ME..
just one dollar ok!
so good at it..
i was stunned and was extreme happy..
he had a good time wid me too..
and i buy many korean tibits..
woots woots..
nice!!
we bought quite many dvds.
yea..
this coming holidays we can watch tgt le..
=D
Labels: we'll have more fun again. =)
1:13 AM
Our love will everlast x33
Saturday, May 16, 2009
went for AYG training and briefing.
not bad.
quite fun.
meet up wid baby.
its like we meet very often this week.
HAPPY!
then we went to IMM.
baby wanna eat fish.
so we went to fish & co.
share tgt
headed to chervon to sing for 2 hours.
we order stingray & satay.
we was in the big big room.
just the two of us. =D
we are the cowboy and cowgirl. ^^
we got way too many pics. so i just random take the first few to upload.
& we got a big big secret inside that KTV.
only baby and me noe abt it..
ssshhh ok?
the evidence is all in his phone. haha
Labels: mi mi wor
8:59 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Friday, May 15, 2009
8:52 PM
Our love will everlast x33
Sunday, May 10, 2009
today is the world noble mummy day.
and we are here in this mini world because of our mummy.
i really had much laughter, crying like madness, throwing my temper,
being the pampered at home since young.
but still, my parents love them as much as i love them.
i'm really one lucky ger..
i was very excited for today.
super extreme excited.
we went out together.
three lil kids going out together. =p
lalala.
this yr, it was a pity, that my bro can't celebrate wid us.
sigh.
well. don wanna talk abt any unhappiness stuffs in this entry.
back to my happy blogging..
i gave my mummy flowers, & she's like over the moon..
becox my daddy la..
never give her flowers..
tsk tsk.. notti papa..
must learn to be sweeter ok..?
then i bought 2 tops for my mummy.
hee..
ppl always buy couple shirt..
now i had my mummy and daughter shirt..
and we wear the same top out today..
was so very happy..
heee..
then we headed down to Bugis.
i bluff mummy tat i wanted to buy some clothes on the upper level..
but when we reach the 3rd level..
i pointed to the shop..
mummy mummy, since we are here..
lets go in..
come come take photos..
initially she dun wan..
but...
i just go in change money and w/o much hesitation i just put in the money into the machine.
hahaha..
so she left wid no choice..
together out whole family had our neoprints taken..
hee.. really bliss.
then we shop shop a bit.
buy some food..
then we went to golden chopstick for steamboat dinner.
hmm.
but too bad.
my daddy say he don like steamboat.
ask me next time don't bring him eat steamboat le.
ok..
i'm excited again.
waiting for the next outing.
lalalalala..
last but not least, i love my papa mama
happy threesome. =D
edited... ...
11 may, 09
this is the high element tat i went through in the adventure learning centre.
its so thrilling and fun.
my first time going through this in RP.
and i realized.
i overcome my comfort zone.
i'm not afraid of height.
i'm not afraid of water.
i'm not afraid of dark.
i'm not afraid of pain.
i'm not afraid of falling down.
i wan to have more of these thrilling..
and now..
i wish to try sky diving..
if i got the opportunity..
i will go for it..
woo hoo..
excited.
excited.
excited.
but i'm afraid of insects.
afraid of injections.
a bit afraid of blood.
what else am i afraid?
trying to figure out now...
hmm. hmm..
i want to overcome it.
jia you LIPING.
motivated. !! =D
Labels: i'm a lucky ger. i love my family much much. muackx.
11:08 PM
Our love will everlast x33
this is the place whr i don like the food.
this is the high element tat i went through in the adventure learning centre.